My beautiful baby boy. He was born on 6 July at 3.17 pm weighing just 3lbs 13 oz, but to me Brody was born long before that in my heart. My story is hard to tell but one I would like to share with you as it has left a lasting mark on my life and I will take this with me forever. As most of you will know that my beautiful baby boy was poorly from 20 weeks I was referred to Hospital Jo and I thought that this was routine and that we would get there and all would be fine and we has just have had a mini trip to Birmingham. But that was not the case. We were instantly hit with information we never thought we would hear that my son was ill and tests needed to be carried out. Of course the tests were scary but I knew that I needed to do this; i needed to be strong for him and do all I could to save him. That day was hard it hit Jo and I so hard like you wouldn't understand. But it ever stopped there for weeks we would go back and forth to the fetal medicine department and pray for good news some weeks we would get it some weeks we wouldn't and it would be another procedure to try and save Brody’s life. Jo would ensure I was focused and tell me it was all for my boy. I would always agree to whatever was thrown at me I would stay brave and Jo would focus me. She would never show me how hard it was to watch and hear the facts from the team mainly Peter who always told us the truth. As weeks past and things got progressively worse we remained positive all I had was positivity I had no time to think of the worse. However 6 July was the day I had to have my baby he was to poorly to stay with me he needed more help which could only come from the outside. So my c section was booked for 2 pm. I was scared, excited and so happy to see what my boy looked like and whether he suited his name. But at 3.17 my world changed he was delivered I was told he would need lots of care and there were lots of doctors working on him. But moments later jo heard him cry then I heard two other out cries jo said that was good I was amazing I heard my little boy. Time went so slow eventually I was told they had to take him away he was struggling. It was 3 hours before i knew any more i had to go to recovery and wait. Eventually i got pictures he was just perfect in every way. I named him from those pictures. Time went slow doctors told me he was critical. At 9 pm that night I was advised to see him and have him blessed as he was unlikely to make it through the night. We had him blessed. His stats then improved but as it was only hours after my section i had to go back to my room and sort myself out and then 3.06 I got the midwife to call down see how he's doing they said no change I was relieved he could get through the night what a blessing. But 4.05 I made the hardest decision of my life to remove his ventilator he was sadly leaving me and there was nothing i could do so I agreed to all of his monitors to be removed once my sister had arrived so that she could see him alive one more time. We then dressed him and held him for a further 11 hours. Brody was just 15hours old when he passed but they were the most precious 15 hours i could have ever hoped for they will live on with me forever. During this time I have crossed paths with many people. But I have to say the person who touched my heart the most was my big sister she was my rock my world. Without her i would never have managed this situation, and The Fetal Medicine Department at Birmingham Women's Hospital. They fought hard and long for Brody. I would really like to take this time to thank them they really are carrying out gods work. Peter with you and your brutal honesty I would never have spent 15 hours with Brody I can only thank you for that. The team members Bill, Helen, Sadie and Debbie who touched me more than I could have imagined. The NHS have done me proud ironic as my little boy didn't make it but they gave me the change to be a mom for 15hours and what a joy that was. Each of these people are gifts and have a place in my heart forever Jo all I can say is that your my world you feel my pain more than anyone. You would have been the best aunt ever. We had so many plans but we can still carry out those plans just a little bit differently. Thank you for all coming to Say bye to Brody and seeing on to his next journey Brody mommy can't wait to see you again. I love you!